When I think about what bugs me most in life, a few things come to mind. When people are rude to other people is definitely at the top of list. Liars. Cold shoulder tops. Blogger spam emails. Uncomfortably, yet adorable heels. You get where I’m going here…
But, really… when I really sit down and think about it… the thing that tops the list is something that I’m 100% in control of. The thing that bugs me most in life: When I’m not true to myself.
Now seriously, if we were going to be true to any one person, we should pick ourselves, right? It’s incredibly true. We should always be honest with ourselves. I mean, we spend a lot of time with one another. And, I mean, who are we kidding when we lie?
This weekend, I had a pretty sizable breakthrough in this area, which sparked this post. I did something I haven’t done in a long time: I worked out two days in a row.
Now, these may be the last two days I ever work out… or it may be the beginning of a crazy string of days. Either way, they happened and I’m incredibly proud.
Why, you ask? Because I finally effing did it. Yep, I’ve been telling myself for months that I was going to work out. Telling myself for weeks that I’d get to it when I had time/the weather was perfect/the eclipse appeared in the north sky. In reality, I’d told myself a million times. And a million times (less two days) I’ve let myself down.
For the past two days, I’ve felt AMAZING. I’ve been so happy to be active again. I’ve gotten out into the great outdoors to some of my favorite walking spots… and I’ve just breathed it in! And, both days, I’ve walked in the morning… so when it was done, I still had the full day ahead of me. No anxiety. No wondering if I was going to do it or not. It was completed and I could enjoy the rest of the day.
It felt great.
It also doesn’t hurt that I was listening to the audiobook You Are a Badass while I was pounding the pavement. Have y’all read this? So far so good…
Going into a Monday, I’m a little curious how I’m going to keep this streak going. With my current lifestyle, I don’t have a easily fit this in. I don’t like waking up early. It’s not what works well for me, but in my gut, I know if I can get up and walk before work… it will make things so much better. And, afternoons have been REALLY hot lately. I guess there’s always the gym and the treadmill. You know, that place I’ve been paying for that haven’t gone in months. Ideally, I’d like to get it done in the morning. I’ll work on that, and report back.
Here’s what I know: When I exercise and eat well, I feel better about myself. Regardless of what the scale says, I know that I am doing things that fuel my body and make me feel incredible. While I know going from 0-100 is a little aggressive, I do want to applaud these tiny wins. And, writing about it reminds me that I’m not going through this journey alone and that many of you out there might have the same struggles.