Oh goodness, how I dread sharing this with you all.
I weighed in on Saturday morning and as expected the scale reflected a gain. This weigh-in reflected a 2-week period, since I didn’t weigh in last Saturday. I knew it wasn’t going to be pretty… but I always hope for the best. It was terrible.
This Week’s Loss: + 2.2 lbs.
Total Weight Loss: – 80.2 lbs
I can’t say I was even remotely surprised that there was a gain, but seeing that TWO pounds higher weight staring back at me was a little startling.
My eating has been a little out of control lately. Since I’m amongst friends, I’ll tell you. That is quite the understatement….
I feel like when I step outside of my normal healthy living routine, I get a taste for my old eating lifestyle. Sometimes, I just slide into a really bad eating place. The more and more I go through this journey, the more I’m getting to know about my eating patterns. While Jenny Craig was the tool I’ve used to lose my weight, I think I could have very easily walked into Overeaters Anonymous or other support groups for emotional/compulsive eating and also had success.
Even though I stay very much in control of my eating on most weeks, I have a pretty unhealthy relationship with food. We’re going to need to become friends at some point, me and food. We’re going to need to learn to co-exist. It’s not like alcohol where I could just never drink ever again. I have to eat to live. I have to come up with a way for this to work…. This week, I’ve just been eating too much. I haven’t been eating donuts and fried chicken sandwiches. I’ve just been eating large portions and excessively snacking. That’s where I get in trouble these days.
Whenever I feel like this, I usually turn to the experts. They always have the best tips and strategies for success and that’s definitely what I need right now. After my second visit to the gym on Sunday (yay, me!), I decided to hit Barnes and Noble.
While I usually read via eBook, I felt like I needed to browse the eating disorder section and see what they had. There’s nothing worse than buying the wrong book… especially when you really need a good one.
There were a lot of books about mindful eating and ending emotional eating. I ended up choosing one that several of you guys had recommended before: Women, Food, and God – The Unexpected Path to Almost Everything
I’ve never read anything by Geneen Roth, but I’m hoping she can inspire me to get back on track. I talked to my JCC and shared that the biggest challenge right now for me is eating less snacks. Yes, I am allotted snacks daily… but not like FOUR snacks. Unless they’re all vegetables.
I’m going to read a little before I go to bed tonight, and as always… I’ll keep you guys posted on how it goes. That combined with a strong schedule of workouts this week, I’m hoping that the 2 lbs that showed up this week will vanish quickly.
Let’s do this!