Ever since I got back from NYC, I’ve been home. And by home, I mean, literally.
I’ve sunken into my couch, I’ve washed every stitch of clothing I’ve had lying around, and I’ve even done silly (aka amazing) things like clean out the closets and the garage. Some might say I’ve been nesting, but it’s really more than that right now.
I would also say (honestly) that I’m on sabbatical from the Happiness Tour. Loud shrieking gasp!!!
I know. If there is one thing I hate, it’s the post-summer blues… but man, I’m struggling right now.
This is certainly not how I planned to end my summer, but somewhere between my whirlwind adventures ending, real life showing back up, being overwhelmed by work, and not being selected for an amazing opportunity, I’ve fallen into a funk.
There. I’ve said it. I feel like I need to write about it today… because it’s time to turn this ship around. As long as I pretend it’s not happening, I don’t do anything about it… and it’s beyond time.
True Story: I absolutely know that I am creating this reality. Just like I was able to create a phenomenal summer like none other with happy around every corner, for some reason right now, I’m creating a pattern of garbage. Ugh…
So… how do I get out of this funk? How do I release this horrible energy I’m carrying around? I start by writing about it. Admitting that it’s a thing. And then, I get a freakin’ plan in place to change it.
There’s a few things that aren’t helping me right now and a few changes that need to happen…
Stop Comparing Myself to Others on the Internet
I really think we all do this to an extent. My friend Meagan and I were talking about it Saturday night at dinner. For the most part, everyone in my social media feed is getting it all done. They’re pictured wearing the perfect outfit with their perfect family. They just lost 5 lbs. They LOVE to workout at 5am. They’re addicted to running and completely full after that tiny bowl of celery they just ate.
Right now, even those words exhaust me. It reminds me that I’m single, that I haven’t lost weight recently, that I can’t even get out of bed on time to go to work, and that I haven’t worked out regularly in a year…. and so, it’s very easy to head down that downward spiral.
Social media is just that: A happy little scrapbook of the best of what’s going on in everyone’s life. And while I absolutely love that my friends are doing so well, I have to pause and give myself a little bit of a break.
It’s okay to not have everything together. It’s okay to have gritty moments. I only need to be concerned about my world… not everyone else’s projection of perfection.
Stop Running on Autopilot
Considering my wacky “I travel at least every other weekend” summer that I had, I really put my life on cruise control (albeit at 80 MPH) and just plowed full speed ahead. Details were not cared for. Meal planning: not so much. Workouts: No time for that.
But now, I absolutely, 100% recognize that I will feel better about the entire situation if I put a semblance of a plan/structure in place.
I also recognize that I make things happen in my life. I don’t sit around waiting for them to happen… and it’s time to get back in the driver’s seat.
Get Back to the Basics
I plan to keep it simple : Meal Planning, Yoga, Daily Gratitude, and Getting Back in the Habit of Choosing My Day. I’m not going to post a crazy 4 week plan of how I’m going do every detail, but I’m going to commit to sharing my progress along the way. And, I plan to have some fun stuff to share.
It’s official: I’m stepping aside and getting the eff out of my own way.
I always feel a little hesitant to post things like this… but man, I can’t believe how great it feels to write it! It reminds me gently that there is a way out and that I get to choose change.
Thank you for understanding, listening, and for navigating the next chapter of this journey with me.
Oh, my dears… I’m finally exhaling, and I can’t wait to feel like myself again soon.