I’m hoping that the holidays were incredibly enjoyable for each of you and that you had some beautiful time with friends and family. I also hope that amongst all the craziness, you found a little quiet time to reflect on the year that’s past, and the year that lies ahead.
I’ve been a little quiet all month on NTTC, much to do with the insanity that was my month of December and a desire to just quietly disconnect and recharge as the year came to an end. I loved every minute of it!
I came home to Colorado last Sunday, and thankfully had a full week to rest, recover, and prepare for 2015. It has been incredibly delightful. I’ve cooked. I’ve stocked my fridge. I’ve organized. I’ve knit. I’ve watched movies. I’ve rested. I’ve read books. I’ve spent time with dear friends. I couldn’t have asked for a better week off…
There was, however, one thing lingering out there that I needed to attend to… putting together my healthy plan for 2015. This is the time of year, like other bloggers, that I post my year in review… I talk about my accomplishments, share the top recipes of the year, and throw down some big goals I’m going to tackle in the new year.
As you may have noticed, I haven’t done any of this as 2015 began.
Do I have things I want to accomplish? Absolutely. Do I have a strong plan for how I’m going to get there? Nope.
When I put something in writing, I feel like that is my path… that is the journey I’m going to take. I also know that when I put it up on No Thanks to Cake, I’m making these commitments to each of you. And, I haven’t been ready to commit yet.
Today, I’m going to tell you a little more about it. I need to talk about it. And, I can’t think of anywhere better to talk about it.
Truthfully, I have some weight to lose in 2015. And, I’m uncomfortable with it. I’m uncomfortable in my jeans, uncomfortable in my work pants, and just plain sad that I don’t fit into my red work pants comfortably anymore. #truth
My life has taken a weird turn during the last quarter of 2014, and in many ways… I think I hit a point where I threw in the towel. My days (and weeks) are nuts. That’s just the way I roll… and how I always have. And, in the past, I’ve always been able to balance it all.
When I had my car accident in September, everything changed. I was rear-ended while at a complete stop, and my back took the brunt of the impact. I’ve since spent countless hours on the couch with ice and heat and have become a regular at my chiropractor’s office. And, I’m still not back to normal. Not meant to be a pity-party, just catching you up…
I can’t even begin to tell you how surprised I was by this injury. I’ve never really been injured (aside from minor bumps and bruises) and it really stops you in your tracks. And, worse, it can impact upon your spirit.
For me, I’ve been so disappointed that my usually busy evenings have instead revolved around an ice pack schedule on the couch. I’ve also become uninspired with regard to my healthy routine. I’ve been more lazy in my eating habits, I haven’t been able to get into the gym since September (aside from two painful yoga sessions)… and I’ve gained weight.
(Ewwww… I don’t even like seeing that in writing.)
I’m a weight loss blogger – – dang it! I don’t gain weight, I lose weight. I also know that my strength in losing weight was that I was writing about it. And, I haven’t been writing for some time.
I’ve said it before, but when I write about things… it releases the energy I’m holding onto around the issue. So, today… I’m letting all of this shit go. I can already feel the shift from the beginning of this post until now. It’s strangely and fabulously therapeutic for me to express myself this way.
Since I arrived back in Colorado, I’ve been eating healthier. Making good choices every day and doing my best. Losing these few extra pounds is not going to happen overnight, but I absolutely know it’s going to happen.
And, when it does… I’m going to post a big ‘ol picture of me in those red pants. 🙂
Thanks for listening, y’all!