Last week, I crafted a FANTASTIC plan for how I was going to stay on track this week. And, for the most part, I did just that!
I ate Jenny Craig for most lunches and dinners, and I made it to the gym several times throughout the week. A few things that I didn’t do so well:
1 – I found those yummy Special K Pastry Crisps last week, and I ate them in RECORD time.
2 – I visited six Costcos for work on Thursday, and I may have had samples at more than one location.
Other than that, my week was strong, but my weigh-in NOT SO MUCH.
This Week’s Loss: - 0.0 lbs
Total Weight Loss: - 84.4 lbs
So… what to do with this. What to do…. I literally debated writing about it today. It’s sort of embarrassing to plan such a week to proclaim that you are going to lose, and then not to do it. However, I feel like brushing over this week of maintaining wouldn’t really help me either. And that writing about it might….
THE TRUTH
I’m pretty darn happy with the weight I am at. My clothes fit well, and I’ve got a full wardrobe of outfits in this size.
I eat healthy most meals, and a whole heck of a lot more healthy than I’ve eaten in the past.
While I want to hit my goal because I’m excited to get there, I’m not highly motivated to do it.
There are times I try to motivate myself thinking that it would be SUCH a great story to share here on NTTC… me hitting my goal. Other times, I try to motivate myself by telling little ol’ me that I’ve never hit my weight loss goal, so this would be a first. I should do it for that reason. I even tell myself that I need to get to my weight loss goal by the end of November so that I don’t have to pay for a renewal with Jenny Craig. Yeah… money’s not motivating me either.
In all honesty, I don’t think I am going to be any more/less happy with 6 pounds on/off my body. In my head, I’ve already gotten there. I’ve lost 85 lbs. I’ve left 6 pants sizes in the dust… I’ve transformed my life and my health. In essence, I’ve already won. I’ve accomplished what I wanted to do when I began this journey two years ago.
What remains is that number on the scale. It doesn’t look like I want it to look. It doesn’t have a six in the middle, instead it rocks a seven. Does that really matter?
Numbers on a scale really don’t phase me anymore. I’ve felt guilty about the number in the past, but that number was much bigger than it is today. I cannot get mad at myself for a number like 172. I used to go through mental gymnastics when the number 256 was looking back at me, but I have to be nice to 172. There is nothing wrong with 172.
172 gets to the gym about 5 times a week and likes the time I spend there! 172 can fit comfortably in an airplane seat. 172 can zipline without question. Pictures of 172 don’t make me cringe. While I still have pounds to lose, I feel optimistic at 172. I will never again be at a weight that leads with a TWO. I feel CONFIDENT at 172, which is not something I would have said 85 lbs ago. And, 172 works for me right now…
Does this mean my weight loss journey is over? Not at all. I am going to hit that 165, and maybe even 155. It’s going to happen and you are going to hear about it and celebrate with me.
Am I going to lessen the intensity of this process? Nope, not gonna do it… but what I am going to do is give myself a bit of a “break.” Meaning that I am going to stop being so hard on my slower progress as of late, and be patient with the process.
I find strength in words. Whether I’m writing them or I’m reading them. Example: The Holstee Manifesto that I love so much, and that I read nearly every day. Well, today I came across some words that resonated for me and inspired today’s post.
I have to believe this to be true, and I have to believe that I’ll see this journey to the end. And, I have to believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
Thank you all for listening and reading today. Let’s make it a great week! xoxo
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A number on the scale is just that – a number. I think you have a very balanced outlook, based on how your clothes feel, reflecting on how much your life and health has changed, not to mention how great you look. Think about how far you have come! Congratulations!
Thanks for your kind words, Barbara. I’m still a work in progress, but certainly very happy!
172 is a great number! It’s a number I hope to see one day. Your outlook is very positive and you sound happy and healthy which is all that matters. You will get to that goal number eventually
I very rarely share the real number, but I decided to put it out there! It’s a good number… a number you too will see soon, lady!
This really hit home with me. I have about 15 more pounds till my goal. I have been at my current weight for about 6 months now. And like you I just can’t get below a certain number! I am so glad I am not the only one going through this. We do need to be proud for what we have lost. Thanks for the encouragement and giving me the confidence to know that I can do this, just not at the original pace I set for myself.
This weekend, my Jenny Craig counselor said very plainly… “Hey, it’s not a race.” Really stood out to me… it’s not a race, but we’ll get there.
I LOVE this post so much! It makes a lot of sense because your journey has reached new levels in all the weight you’ve lost and the healthy habits you’ve added into your life. It’s so great to celebrate where you are and know that more of this incredible journey is in the horizon. Relish every minute of the now
Thanks, Patty!!! Means a LOT coming from you, my dear! I know you know exactly what it feels like to be on this journey…
I know this feeling well. The number on the scale can give me the best day ever, or put me on a downward spiral. That is so wrong. I’m working on not letting THE NUMBER have such an emotional impact on me. I’m trying to be kind to myself and keep on striving.
Being kind to ourselves. That’s the MAIN thing we need to do. I used to be SO mean to myself…. not any more. I just won’t have it!
It’s no secret that as you get lower in weight in gets harder to lose. And its so awesome that you have really come to embrace how far you’ve come, how you feel, and how proud you are of yourself. I am too! You’re doing awesome. I love reading your insights and following how things are going. But I also have to say, YOU CAN DO IT. You can get to 165. No doubt in my mind. Live your life, feel good about yourself, but get your goal, girl! You’re gonna do it and I’m gonna read about it!
Totally my cheerleader from NE Ohio… Thanks, Julie! xoxo
Good for you! It sounds like you have a very rational, realistic approach. I had a similar experience this morning. I have been about five pounds above my “comfortable weight” recently, and committed this past week to really shedding them. I was feeling GREAT all week, and even ran in a half-marathon on Saturday. This morning, I stepped on the scale and I had GAINED two pounds. Grrr. Very frustrating.
No matter what the number is…you are rocking it girl! 85 pounds is amazing…it’s a 10 year old girl. I was reading this post thinking of my 11 year old…she was 85 pounds last year on her birthday…you lost an entire 5th grader!! That is something to be proud of and revel in.
We set goals for ourselves based on numbers and sizes that may have been picked just because. You look amazing! Beautiful inside and out! What matters most is how you feel! You have not gone on a diet…you have revamped your entire lifestyle. Be proud and remember, Dr.Seuss said it best
“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”
And those of us who know you personally…or via your blog would have you no other way!! <3
Thanks, dear… so honored that you and I are back in touch and sharing in this journey together! xoxo
Great attitude Kelly! It is harder the closer you get to goal.
You will get to goal.
You have come so far in your journey! It is amazing!!
Just look at all the changes you have made in your life, and the experiences you have been able to have due to your hard work.
Sometimes I think we focus on the number on the scale too much.
Think about the way your clothes fit, your confidence I am sure is up, etc.
You inspire me Kelly!
I have wanted to give up, but then I come over to your blog and read your words.
Thanks for your blog!
I love that you’re finding strength here via NTTC! Kathy… we’re going to get there! We’ll get there at our own pace though, but victory will be just as sweet! xoxo
Keep that attitude and you’ll get there! Best wishes and hugs for a journey to goal that is so close and within your reach and always takes more time than the bulk of weight loss does. My last stretch towards goal took 2 months for 15 lbs when I had lost 85 lbs in 12 months??? Exercise and clean OP eating will get ya there. Take care and be well!
Thanks, Marion!!! I feel like you’ve been there since early on…. I appreciate your kind words along the way more than you know!
Sounds like you’ve got it together. I agree, it’s more important to feel good within your body than try to conform to what a scale or a doctor’s chart says… as long as you’re as healthy as you can be. I know from past dieting failures that I can’t completely give up the treats I love, but as long as I remember that moderation is key, then I can eat an occasional junk food treat, and still be okay.
I agree with your comment about the doctor’s chart… although, gosh, I want to be “normal” and “healthy” at some point. Just being patient with myself until I get there, I suppose…
Loved this post, so close to my heart. Reminded me of what I wrote for the calendar.
We’ve got a lot in common in this area, I think. xoxo